Newspaper "Extreme MakeOver" / Mommy Of Baby Haylee (Mommy)
Baby Girl, my students are the best. After all the tragedies that have happened in my life in the last Year 5 months and 20 days they did something amazing. They showed me how much they care by creating a priceless video and sending it of to "Extreme Home Makeover". The video tells about you, the fire and how they feel about me. I never realized how much I was loved by these kids. I knew I loved them and that they helped me everyday by supporting me throught the worst of times. They have so much compassion and love for such young ages. Watch over them as they go through life, help them to hold on to their sweet spirits. I miss your spirit, it radiated from you, no matter where we were. I look forward to seeing it again one day. I miss you as always.
I talk to Haylee in my heart all the time and sometimes I put my thoughts into words in the form of a song. One day my son, Jo-Jo, will write a beautiful melody to go with the words to this song that I wrote about my little angel. Until then it is a song for my Haylee and the music is in my heart.
My Haylee’s Heaven
My Haylee’s in Heaven and God’s on his throne And the angels that came here to carry her home Are all singing and playing in heavens live band And my Haylee is dancing and clapping her hands
In my minds eye I see her with beautiful wings And she blesses the lord with her smile when she sings Halleluiah to Jesus with an angel’s sweet voice I hear my Haylee girl laughing and singing with joy
I can’t wait till I join her and dance in the streets Singing praises to Jesus bowing on bended knees With my heart overflowing from wonder and love While my Haylee holds onto my hand up above
One by one we’ll all follow her through heavens gate And together forever in love we will stay I don’t have all the answers when nothing seems right But I know that my Haylee sleeps with Angels tonight
The days pass so slowly for those left on earth We are blessed if we cherish what each day is worth Just a moment in Heaven can be years in this world When I get there my Haylee will still be my sweet girl
Daddy's Story / Nightmare / Thomas Mazzella (Haylee's Daddy ) On June, 3 2006 I received the worst phone call of my life. I am in the military and had my weekend duty. I was leaving around 4:15 pm and talked to my wife on my cell. My wife and kids were at a family/friend function swimmimg and everything was fine. Fifteen minutes later I received a call from my brother-in-law saying he was told something about Haylee and being under the water and get mom and go to the hospital. My wife had told someome to call me, but NOone did. I had to call information, find the house where they were, and call there. I was told that my wonderful, beautiful, loving daughter had been under the water and was lifeless as the paramedics took her to the hospital. As I drove 40 miles to get to her I prayed to God "please don't take my baby!, please don't take my baby! I stayed in conatct with my mother who was able to get to the hospital and I begged her to tell me how she was. Because of their fear of my driving safety she could not tell me. When I arrived at the ER, the first eye contact I made was with my brother-in-law and he got teary eyed. At that moment it confirmed to me my baby girl was gone. A few steps later my wife crying said " TOMMY SHE'S DEAD" I proceded to punch and scream and saying NOOOO!
A Mothers Love is Like No Other / Kim Gann (Cousin)
THE CORD We are connected, My child and I, by an invisible cord Not seen by the eye. It's not like the cord That connects us 'til birth This cord can't be seen By any on Earth. This cord does it's work Right from the start. It binds us together Attached to my heart. I know that it's there Though no one can see The invisible cord From my child to me. The strenght of this cord Is hard to describe. It can't be destroyed It can't be denied. It's stronger than any cord Man could create It withstands the test Can hold any weight. And though you are gone, Though you're not here with me, The cord is still there But no one can see. It pulls at my heart I am bruised...I am sore, But this cord is my lifeline As never Before. I am thankful that God Connects us this way A mother and child Death can't take it away!
Students who use talents to share their pain, loss & Love. / Ms.Mazzella & Aaron/ Teacher & Student - (Student & Friend to Haylee )
When I first meet Aaron Jackson he was quiet and sweet. I try to meet my students without hearing about their past, it allows us to start fresh. Well with Aaron this was a new concept. It took a few weeks but I felt I had finally obtained his trust. Then one afternoon my class had an assignment to write a short poem about Christianity. Aaron turned his in first; of course I assumed he really didn’t try, wrong on my part. His paper was phenomenal; at that moment I found a talent in him I was not sure he was aware of. I still have the paper to remind me why I teach. I tried to encourage him in his writing. To do a summer program and to look into colleges that offer journalism classes. He has a gift. He has great potential and I intend for him to use it. I will always be keeping updates on my junior and senior classes so don’t slack off.
After Haylee passed away, I went into complete shock and denial. I can still barely get out of bed. But Aaron wrote me a letter and it touched me. It was nice to know my student love me so much in such a time of need. Aaron wrote a poem and I would like to share it with those who loved Haylee:
You don’t always make sense Lord There was absaloutly no reason Our hearts have been torn We’ll never again enjoy this season Such a beautiful soul To have her we were blessed Now we're left In the cold Our emotions and thoughts are a mess I try to find the diamonds in the rough The good side to the tragedy But I have looked enough I will still trust you Lord Though I don’t understand you Please show me the wisdom For you are my only answer This day I will mourn Her life has been stolen But tomorrow I celebrate For a soul has returned home The angels are proud Her life was always so blissful When you see her in the clouds Please tell Haylee we miss her so.
IN LOVING MEMORY OF HAYLEE MAZZELLA, WHO PAST AWAY BEFORE EXPERIENCING LIFE TO THE FULLIEST,
By: Aaron Jackson 11th Grade CCCS June 5, 2006
I love you Aaron thank you for your kind words and I will always be proud of you. Ms. Mazzella
Sonya, I remember you from my days at WBBC, but moved away in 1995. I never had the privilege of meeting your beautiful Baby Girl. I read your site everyday and have seen all of her beautiful pictures. She is not only beautiful on the outside, but I can see her inner beauty, such a loving personality. You and your husband are wonderful parents, please don't ever doubt that. I wish I had answers for you, but I don't. I cannot even imagine what you are going through. I continue to pray for some comfort and peace for all of you. Today marks the 17th anniversary of my Dad's departure to heaven. I remember your Dad praying with my Dad and leading him to the Lord. It is a great comfort knowing my Dad is in a wonderful place, but the pain is still there. I don't know why God chose my Dad, or Bro. Easley to come home, it was to soon, i said, to soon. Well I have since learned the meaning of TO SOON. Your beautiful Baby Girl left this earth before she had a chance to begin, I don't know why. God has a plan, and only he knows what it is. I try never to question God, but sometimes I just don't understand. I have been sharing your site with others who will continue to lift your family up in prayer. Your family is in my prayers everyday. May God lift you out of this valley. God Bless you, Vanessa Dunlap
My tribute to you is telling you that " We love you." There is no greater gift than to have been loved. Baby girl, you are so loved that the heavens must shake. You are only five years old and you are more loved in your short time on this planet then many folks have known in many decades. God knows you and He knows what He is doing. We don't understand!!!! Trusting in what is unseen is the key. We have to believe that God will make sense of this disaster. Untill we understand, Darling, pray for us. We love you and miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Forever yours in love, Aunt Donna
Remember/ Brandon Dutreix (Just another she touched ) Having two childred myself I try so hard to understand what all of you are going through, exspecially Sonya and Tommy. I know I can't even being to understand what you guys have had to deal with and still feel, bear and hurt with today. I am very proud of you though for how far you have come. I do know the road ahead looks so dark and narrow, but remember that Haylee would never want you to give up on each other or exspecially Bubby. The number of visits to the web site should show you that even though you feel alone, you are not alone. I wish there was a answer to why life can be so fragile and just taken away without notice. Hopefully HE has the answers for when we go to HIM at the end......love and always here...Brandon
Sonya, This website is such a beautiful tribute to Haylee. I LOVE the picture of her with the lizard......she is so much like her mommy! She is so beautiful and was loved by so many..... especially you. You were oviously the GREATEST mother, she has the biggest smile in every picture.......she was happy! She looks so much like you. Anyone can see and feel the love the two of you shared through this site. I pray for you everyday and night. I am here for you and always will be! LOVE YOU and MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!
Just a short note to let you know that you are all in my prayers and thoughts. What an absolute beautiful little girl. THe photos on this site indicates how much love each of you had for your precious Haylee. You can feel the love.
My heart breaks for all of you. It is going to be 22 months since we lost our precious niece. She was 24 and died in a car accident. It does not get easier.........not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I visit her world www.angie-robert.memory-of.com each and every day.
Sonya, your little girl looked so much like you. As hard as it is, try not to feel guility for not being there at the time of the accident. Through the eyes of your daughter in each and every photo, you can see that she knew she was loved, admired and so well taken care of......My heart truly hurts for each of you.
Your sweet girl / Kim Conn (Sherry's friend ) Sonya, we've met before, but it was brief and I'm sure you don't remember. Anyway, through Sherry and this website I have come to know your sweet girl. I read your postings and it breaks my heart because your pain and grief are so deep, it's tangible. I hope you don't mind, but I've been talking to Haylee. I asked her if she's had the chance to meet my grandchild and if she has, could she tell me if it's going to be a boy or a girl. I asked her to write it in the clouds (if it wasn't a secret!). I keep looking for a pink answer, but so far I've only seen blue. I asked her to be my grandchild's first friend. With all my heart I wish I could ease your pain. It almost seems like praying isn't enough, but really, that's all there is. After my daddy died I had a dream about him and in this dream I told him there was a way for him to come back to us and he answered, "I don't want to come back". That dream saddened me and it even hurt my feelings a little bit, but, it was like he was telling me that Heaven really is what we imagine it to be and he was so happy and would be there waiting. Sonya, I lift you and your whole family up in prayer.
To the angel I never had the pleasure of meeting. / Jessica Ghyers (friend of her mother )
To introduce myself, I am Alicia Knobloch's niece(so Sonya remembers me). I never had the chance to meet Haylee, but I do know how sweet and loving her mother is and I'm sure her baby girl was tripled the sweetness. My condolences to all who lost this little angel. A single pray I made when I heard the news, is that her wonderful Grandpa was waiting in heaven for her arrival. My prays are with you Sonya, take care of your other little blessing.
---God's Lent Girl --- / Cynthia Davidson (Daddy's Cousin ) I'll lend you for a little while a child of mine, God said, For you to love the while she lives, and mourn for when she's dead. It may be six or seven years, or forty two or three, But will you, 'til I call her back, take care of her for me? She'll bring her charms to gladden you. And should her stay be breif, You'll always have your memories as solace in your greif.
I cannot promise she will stay, since all from earth return, But there are lessons taught below I want this child to learn. I've looked this whole world over in my search for teachers true, And from the folk that crowd life's lane, I have chosen you. Now will you give her all your love and not think the labour vain, Nor hate me when I come to take this lent child back again.
I fancy that I heard them say, 'Dear God Thy will be done", For all the joys this child will bring, the risk of greif we'll run. We will shelter her with tenderness, we'll love her while we may, And for all the happiness we've ever known, we'll ever grateful stay. But should the angels call her much sooner than we'd planned, We will brace the bitter grief that comes and try to understand.
What a beautiful memory / Brittany Wilbert Mrs. Mazzella, I hope and pray that in some way you read this. I have been trying so hard to just somehow be near you. Im very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I can't imagine all the pain and suffering that you and your family must be going through. I wish words could explain the sympathy that I have for you and all your loved one's. I always ask about you! And every cheerleading practice we have, we pray and talk about you. We all miss you so much. I really wish I could be with you. I just want you to know that you have had such a huge impact on my life. There isn't a day that goes by when I wish that I could just hear from you, or see you in class. I don't think that will ever change. I miss you alot. You have changed me so much this past year. Im so happy I got to know you and hear wonderful things about your family. God bless every one of you. I love all of you and I pray everyday that the Lord conforts you more and more each day. I know it's not getting easy but may you always know that God loves you and has never left your side.
Mrs. Mazzella, I hope to see you soon. I miss you beautiful face. I always tell people that you were like a mom to me.. since I lost mine. You have always taught me wonderful things about the Lord and also about English. You gave me hope and a desire to learn more about Jesus. I've have never met such a wonderful mom as you. You were a mom to me. I love you alot. I just want you to know that you are one of the BEST MOMS I have ever met. I hope that one day me and you can share memories and laugh together. Just know you are always in my prayers, always & are never forgotten. Keep letting the Lord love on you and confort you always. I know it's hard right now but we don't know when the Lord is coming again. I hope soon :-)
I love you!
Love always, Brittany Wilbert
Butterfly Wishes / Amanda Christopher (none)
In 2001 I lost my brother he was the same age as Haylee. I was 19. I feel the pain of Haylee's family and friends, and am deeply reminded of my own. I know that during a tragic time as this God is the only way to make it through and walking close with Him is the only way to ever feel peace. Everyday that passses you will think of Haylee and long for Her. Every child you see will be Her. The pain will never truly go away but peace can be found. Just today my mom and I saw a little boy that looked so much like our Logan it was strange. We both longed to hold him , see him, or just talk to him. I am in tears as I write this because I hate that another family is enduring the same pain that we too feel. It's not fair, but we have to be thankful for the memories that we do have. Not sure how I got the email with this link but I am glad I did. I will pray for your family. I titled this Butterfly Wishes because when I see a butterfly I think of Logan as a Butterfly is a symbol of transition from cocoon to butterfly as from Earth to Heaven! With deepest sympathy, Amanda
beautiful/ Jennifer (Tortorich) Stewart What a beautiful tribute to Haylee! I looked through the entire site with tear-filled eyes at minimum, but mostly with tears streaming down my face. What a beautiful angel. The picture that got to me the most was the very last picture of the 3 of you in bed for movie night, the last night you had together. I couldn't help but think how many times I have done that same thing...spending the very end of my day, right before bedtime, with my 2 little ones, cuddled close, with one or both falling asleep. I will never again take those moments for granted, as you never know if they will come again. My heart aches for you all. My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you and your family.
Haylee's Touch / Kim Conn (Friend of Aunt Sherry's )
Your brother smiling in his sleep-
Were you tickling tiny feet? A bright pink butterfly gently lands-
Were you holding mama’s hand?
Lightly touched by falling leaves-
Were you kissing daddy’s cheek?
Beautiful colors all through the sky-
Were you coloring outside the lines?
Chirping crickets, a bird’s sweet call-
Were you whispering to us all?
Beloved child your love abounds-
Heavenly child your love surrounds.
words cannot make it better / Camie Moore (friend of Jenn Stewart )
I know that words will not make anything better but please know there are people out here lifting you and your family up in prayer. I heard of your story through a friend at work (Jenn Stewart who is friends with Melanie). She asked me specifically to pray for you as we too lost our daughter on October 19, 2004. Please know that I am so sorry this has happened to you.. It is truly the absolute worse thing in life that could ever happen. there are no words to even describe it...I know! the only way I am still here today and sane is through God and his healing power and through others helping me that have been there. It takes time, time, time and prayer, prayer, prayer. Please love your little boy and try not to let his life pass you by while you are grieving (that is how I felt that first year with my other daughter). Please never hesitate to contact me if you need an ear or anything else. I will continue to pray for you and your family.
For all those involved in the Cabbage ball Tournament / Sonya &. Tommy Mazzella (Parents)
Tommy and I (Sonya) do not have the words to say thank you for your support during this horrible and unimaginable time in our lives. However, we would like to take this opportunity to say thank you for all of you who donated your time, money and support for the Cabbage ball tournament held on 7-22-06 in honor of our Baby Girl Haylee. Nothing can take away our pain or even comfort us. But it is good to know that there are people who care and that we can turn to if we feel the need. May God bless each of you for your kindness and sincere compassion during our darkest hour. (see pictures from tournamnet under her seconf album "Haylee's Fundraiser")